Over the past three years friends of friends of friends have
mentioned specialist who I should go see.
They will fix you
I can't recall every one of them, but as history
has shown no one could help, and the constant it's all in you head really
started to pi-- me off.
I made an appointment with a Professor of
Gastroenterology, and he took an interest but only briefly.
He helped with areas he could help in but
mentioned my left sided rib pain needed a closer look at my someone in that area
of expertise.
After a few procedures and tests, that all showed
something unusual. It was suggested I try Biofeedback Therapy.
I made the appointment and discussed my opinions,
the course would be once a week for 7 weeks, and the drive would take around 2
hours, usually more because of peek hour traffic.
The doctor I spoke with to get the biofeedback
going was not impressed with the medication I'm on tramadol which can slow
down the bowel, so I was advised if I want to start this course I need to stop
this medication.
Arrrrrggggggggg
After three years this has been the only
medication to relieve my pain, get me back to work, even for a few hours a day,
and enable me to live some sort of life.
I refused to stop because of the above mentioned.
I said if I can find another pain medication that won't interfer with this course, and help ease my pain
I would gladly come off tramadol and do the course, so Biofeedback is on
the TO DO LIST when I can manage my pain with other methods.
I have found a lovely Lady who does lymphatic
massage, so that is a weekly pain relief for me, although just 3 days ago I
resigned from work due to the past three years of absolute agony, so I'm not
going to be able to continue with my weekly sessions.
My Doctor, who has been there for me, said some
time ago, we need to concentrate on managing the pain, and stop searching for a
diagnoses with all these tests, as they have shown in the past not to be of any
benefit, so my frame of mind for some time was
Ok lets concentrate on that
It took me a while
to stick with that idea, because I wanted to be diagnosed, but I new it was
perhaps for the best at that stage.
So last week I need to refill my tramadol script,
and he was not happy .
Saying we need a different path, he's worried
about the addictive factor of this medication, and the side effects it may produce.
This drug was recommended by my pain management
specialist, who advised the Doctor of drug options.
Arrrrrrgggggggggg
After all this time, he finally got me to agree
we need to work on pain management, and not search for a diagnosis, which he
doesn't realise how hard that was for me, and to now say we need a plan of
action to diagnose me.
This just shi...ts me so much I could harm
someone........ The Doctor is playing games with my mind.
What else can you do at this stage?
I completely agree about the additive factor
tramadol could cause, from my research this drug can be highly
addictive.
But the issue for me now is, I pay the doctor to refer
me for this, that and the other, referred for tests, procedures, etc that I
research, I do the hard yards, he gets the money. I'm the doctor without a
degree, if only I could refer myself.
So now I'm on the hunt again for what other
procedures could be performed, relevant to my symptoms, then ask my doctor for a referral.
I have many in mind, one's previously mentioned
to the doctor, but told we need to work on pain management, NOT a
DIAGNOSIS...NO MORE TESTS OR PRODEDURES......
I'm not coping too well at the moment, I
resigned from work, I'm in agony, Doctor is playing games with my mind and I'm
fed up again.
I'm so tired of people saying But what are you
going to do for money NOT I hope you feel better soon.
If my family and fiancée were not there for
support and understanding, I don't know what I would do.
Thank you from the bottom of my
heart.
Verne, Mum, Dad, Robyn, Kelly, Leslie and Kathy.
Hayley, Jerry-Lee, Natassja and little Keithy.
I love you all so much, and you have no idea how much you mean to me.
I need to take a break from writing as I'm becoming a little emotional.
I need to re-align so to speak, and stop thinking about all this for a while.
Spend more time outside (in the freezing weather !) spend more time off the computer, and get
outdoors in the garden.
But I shall return to vent my frustrations, and will always keep the website up to date for
anyone that has taken an interest in my story.
It's a rather boring and long saga.
I have read and re-read the story, and my god I am NOT a very good writer at all ! lol
My grammar is appalling, some parts will not make any sense to you, but they do for me !
Take care everyone, and never give up hope. It's NOT ALL IN YOUR HEAD
It Is Real
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