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My eye pressure has escalated. The eye pressure is such that if I move my eyes around there are little "flashes" everywhere, from where the eyeball is encountering some friction with the socket, I guess. I can feel it being a tighter squeeze in my eye socket as time goes on. Even if I manage to bring pain down through sleep, the pressure's still there and the eyes are still delicate. I'm really scared.
I know this has been happening for environmental (EI/MCS) reasons, so what point is there in seeing some ordinary ophthalmologist who knows nothing about EI? And if I saw someone who knows EI, all they could say would be: change your environment. I'm trapped where I am and can't do this.
A new MD appointment was a disaster. I was so out of it I can't tell or say why it went wrong. To have such a horrible "disconnection" with a doctor when time is crucial is awful. I need an advocate to help talk to doctors, I've needed one urgently for 30 years.
I also feel poisoned on every level, stomach, etc.. I feel starved for oxygen and nutrients no matter how much I eat or breathe. And every letter I type on this keyboard assaults my eye muscles and nervous system. It adds to the eye pressure.
I'm losing contact with everyone as communicating gets much harder.
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"You're better than normal! You're ABnormal!"-- Fry to Leela, who's self-conscious about her single eye, Futurama
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