Hello
I am 22,new here and I want to firstly great you all...
I wanted also to say that I have been examined recently and my organ functions are very good,also most blood values, except for leucocytes ( a bit elevated, about 11000 which is "normal" in my case and always in that range.)
My story begins very early with very unspecific things which don`t make pains but are a bit strange,so I think that it is rather some kind of birth defect in my case.
I recognized very early that the fingers of my right hand looked different from that of my left (nobody in my family has this too),especially the fingernails look a bit different and skin is also thickened on my fingers in general.
my fingernails themselves are fastly growing,irregular and sometimes easily braking.
They have kind of purplish colour and underneath them i often have so-called nail roots which heal very badly and the tips of my fingers aré also redder than the rest of the fingers.
My knee wounds from child days has also developed scars and strange knee pigmentation until today ,although they were always healing normal when I was a child.
I had also a tooth defect, which means that there were 2 adult teeth missing, they just didn`t grow out.
I have always been a bit dark reddish at my cheeks and my face always hade a slightly strange pigmentation,but it has never been very conspicious and I have a bit too much hair at the forehead-ear region,also at the arms and legs.
There weren`t any other problems with the skin but since summer two years ago i recognized a strange allergy in springtime and summer but I didn`t find out against what i am allergic.
It is not a bad skin disease and rather mild,but there are tiny pustules on the back of the hands, on the arms and sometimes on the feet which itch and also burn a little bit.
usually they heal after days, but this summer i recognized that they are some pigmented scars from the rashes.They are not big and not many but I find it strange although,also my skin got dry by the time.
Since childhood I suffer from chronic mental problems like ADHD-like symptoms,anxieties and sometimes I also live a bit in my own world
I have also been plagued by obscure neurotic disturbances,sometimes I have obscure interests but I always knew that I was different (What isn`t the case in general with someone mentally ill and not diagnosed).
Today I also have problems with motivation,coming out of my "world",depression,mania,mild derealisation,childish behaviour and sometimes even mild psychotic thoughts.
Sometimes deep depression comes over me very quickly and withouth reason, lasting only few hours and I also get frustrated very easily,this year hot summer days made my head depressed and melancholic.
I often feel like a slave of my head but my problems,especially with depressions and troubles concentrating have also a physical feeling ,like blockades in my head or tiredness.
I have always had many nightmares or totally obscurre dreams and often troubles with insomnia,it is better for me going to sleep very late early in the morning and sleeping long.
Since I have gotten my period I get my menstruation only every six weeks,sometimes it failed completely for two months and doctors couldn`t find an explanation but hormonal troubles.
I have also bad PMS with personality changes,hysteria,sometimes ther is also a strange burning pain in my bile or pelvic bone pain,moderate nausea but without vomiting accompanied by tachycardia (but with normal diastolic and systolic pressure) and feeling hypoglycemic easily,excessive food cravings,obstipation and sometimes bad migraine days.
This happens to me between one and two weeks before the period starts and then the endometrial pain only lasts the first two days of my period like in "normal women".
My menstrual bleeding amount itself is normal.
For more than three years I sometimes to often felt hypoglycemic generally, when not eating for 3 to 4 hours.I got dizziness,mild nausea,a feeling of weakness and hunger which led me to develop a panic disorder for more than a year.
There is also another kind of dizziness which doesn`t affect the cardiac system but only the brain and nervous system, it is like getting confused,getting slightly respiratory problems and difficulties with swallowing,muscle weakness and sometimes also kind of short absence, being lost in daydreams or a the feeling that everything is so intense
I am very lucky that my problems have never gotten really worse, although I have sometimes felt like dying when hypoglycemic (but amazingly the blood sugar turned out to be 80 to 100 in such situations).
Hypoglycemic feelings and/or tachycardia are the two conditions which make me panic,also my normal pulse rate is often between 90 and 110 (which I luckily don`t feel most of the time)
I have been checked for diabetes,addisons and cushing disease,thyroid disorders,hemochromatosis,liver and kidney diseases,neurological disorders and even gout.
All with negative results.
Doctors often said it is all psychosomatic but I don`t believe that my head is tricking every physical symptom, because I have no really bad emotionally situations or traumatas experienced.
As I said I am glad that my symptoms are by far not the worst and I have never been to hospital e.g for my pulse rate, but I sometimes have the unpleasant feeling and a little fear that one day some serious illness may execarbate...
Thanks for reading and posts
