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Rachel--
Thanks for all that. My impression is of someone young and thrown into a situation that would disorient and confuse most people so badly (especially at that age) that they'd mentally throw up their hands and surrender their will to anyone in authority out of desperation, ignoring any signs that those authorities might not know what they're doing.
What I mean to say is, you seem to be keeping your wits about you and calling into question what an 'expert' tells you, if something doesn't quite add up for you. That's hard to do, when thrown into the strange and scary mess you're in, or were in that is.... here's hoping you dodged a bullet, and that it's over, and you won't have to go to these apparently clueless people anymore!
Psychiatry often throws extreme 'treatments' rather indiscriminately at large numbers of people, in a sort of 'scatter-gun' approach (that's a pretty old-fashioned term, sorry) that may help a few but damages others. It's far too easy for a psychiatrist to find something 'odd' about you and diagnose you with something vague like "schizophrenia", or label a person psychotic which then leads to anti-psychotic drugs, which sometimes do lifelong damage when given to the wrong people, which often happens.
I'm just saying, stop and investigate further if someone ever wants to give you those.
On the other hand, if it's split personality, psychosis, whatever it is... and if it all comes back, some physical treatment may be exactly the thing. (Try stress relief first of course... try all the less drastic, chemical, or invasive options before drugs.) That's a horrible position to be in, and the only thing I can think of to say is that you must not give up your right to decide for yourself, since you seem to have kept your sense pretty well through all this--and somehow if someone like a psychiatrist is going to try treatments on you, be sure you have real faith and in, and a rapport with that person... someone who treats you with respect, not as a clueless lunatic or a child.
My experiences with that 'profession' make me very skeptical about ever finding such a person, but I think you would need to. You're really putting your life in that person's hands.
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"You're better than normal! You're ABnormal!"-- Fry to Leela, who's self-conscious about her single eye, Futurama
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