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I realized last night that I have never truly been healthy.... I pretty much suffer from chronic infections, be it bacterial or viral. I am always sick. When I was born first my belly button got infected and then I was extremely colicky, my mom said I would scream all night as an infant and then get these crazy red and raised rashes with a temprature. She took me to the ER a few times for them to tell her I was allergic to something and to give me some sort of steriod for rashes or allergies. Then as I grew into school age I was very small for my age always had delayed growth with all my peers and developed to what I have to this day as allergy shiners under my eyes (very dark circles) I went to an allergist whom told me allergies where not the cause of the blackish under eyes and he said it was hereditary... No one in my family has them!! ok.. back to topic.. as a child I caught ANYTHING anyone had. I was Always sick. It took me alot longer to recover from even a common cold and usually I would develope ear infections, sinus infections from the colds.Even when I didn't have colds I got sinus and ear infections from just taking swimming lessons and getting the water up my nose or in my ears.
I then got chronic sinus infections, pink eye, ear infections, and strep throat when I was 7-13 years old. I was constently put on antibiotics. Constently had fevers and flu like symptoms alot.. all the time as a child.
Now fastfoward some 20 or so years.. I still get what seems chronic infections. Every three months it seems.. but now I either get UTI or kidney infections or my newest infection in the past three years would be the viral herpetic stomatitus and infections of lymph nodes. This last bout of the stomatitus was so bad that it scarred the roof of my mouth.
I am just pretty aggravated with all of this because looking back it seems I have been undiagnosed then for more than 14 years... I have never been well. I have been undiagnosed for my entire 28 years of life. That is completely frustrating to me. What else is frustrating is my mother, I love her to death but there were alot of mysterious type symptoms that she has.. and her mother had *my grandmother* and she seems to be in denial over all of it. My mother is worse than some of the doctors I have seen. My mother has alot of the same symptoms as me minus the anxiety. There is no anxiety or depression that runs in my family, but my grandmother got seasonal depression as well. SOOO... she gets alot of my same symptoms and blames it on the stupidest things! She blames alot on stress and menopause.. which she went through menopause over 4 years ago! she blames her blurred vision that she gets occasionally to looking at a computer all day or that she is just stressed over and over again. It makes me upset because she was not my best advocate for my health as a child... not at all. She sat there in the doctors office with me time and time again letting them pump me full of antibiotics that would later destroy the good bacteria in my intestines and make it hard for antibiotics to work at all for me later in life. I know your supposed to trust your doctors but still couldn't she see that all those meds weren't helping me? didn't she question why I was sooo much sicker than any other child my age? why did I always have poor attendence all through school starting with the 1st grade and up to high school and even to this day my jobs??? or Why I had such a hard time learning new things in school?! ugh.. I feel like I am taking crazy pills sometimes.
This has been going on my whole life.... and I don't think I have ever known what healthy feels like..
Sorry for the vent guys... I needed to get that off my chest. Thanks..
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**Kristin**
First Struck with Anorexia on and off for about 6 years beginning in 1993. 1995 Diagnosed with GERD, IBS, Anxiety. 2006 Diagnosed with CFS, 2009 Diagnosed with Sleep Apnea and Circadian Rhythm Disorder and Hypoglycemia. 2011 Diagnosed with Vitamin D Deficiency and Hyponatremia. But... why?! I think I am one step closer to that answer ON my own. Your are your own advocate for your health! No one can tell you how you can or can't feel!
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